I have been a master for a long time.
A master of duplicity, presenting one stylised version of me to the world and keeping the real one away from the light.
A master of pretense, pretending things are okay when things are not.
A master of avoidance, distracting myself from big important questions by getting busy with small urgent tasks.
I did not intend to become a master of these things — of duplicity, of pretense, of avoidance — but I achieved a mastery nonetheless, through the habits forged by daily repetition.
So I’m wondering.
If I can chisel out mastery at things that do not sustain me, can I repeat that process of daily repetition to find mastery in some other positive arenas?
Some productive things in which I’d like find mastery:
- Being present
- Creating video
- Becoming the best husband and father I can be
- A fast and reliable first serve
How will I know when I get there?
I’m not sure I will.
But I don’t think “there” is the point.
The journey is.